Everything is going placidly. It’s blissfully sweet to receive text messages saying that they miss me! Of so many things happening around me, my friends are all coming at the right time, when things were about to fumble and fall.  Even though none of them knew what was going on with my superficially thrilling life, perhaps they could sense from far far away that someone is standing on the minimum point now.

Wait! NO. I am not feeling entirely depressed or anything you call it, in fact, I feel pretty much alright, neither am I feeling extremely heavyhearted nor ecstatic. This is why I’m saying god is amazingly powerful. I left everything to him, and everything is all great under his control, at least a lot better than how I used to handle stuff.

Alright, I ought to grumble over one thing, just one thing! :D my left hand is disturbingly painful. It is not a sudden pain, but the pain is there throughout the day. Enough to make me feel uncomfortable. I hope mummy is beside me now, so she could massage my hand to make me feel better. Now I’ve got no idea what to do to make my hand feel better. I’ve tried massaging it, but the pain doesn’t seem to go off.
Yanie was asking me to stop pulling my fingers otherwise it will drop& she will not be able to fix it back. Ha,Silly girl.

I went on with it after praying for a decision. Perhaps ultimately this was what father wants me to do, I strongly believe so. Because at the very least, I wasn’t tearing after making the decision, instead, I felt tiny winy bit of relieved. (That’s not the usual me!)

I hope everything will go on smoothly, still.

**Thank you lord.

I just want to worship you.

Because......

I love how you play along, being silly, with me.
I got a strong feeling that this will be love.
&I know this will last.

I met you on a springtime day,
You were minding your life and I was minding mine too.
Lady, when you looked my way,
I had a strange sensation and Darling, that's when I knew...

That it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.

Oh, I wake up in the night,
And I reach beside me hoping you would be there.
But instead I find someone,
Who believed in me when I said I'd always care...

Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.

So I'll live my life in a dream world,
For the rest of my days.
Just you and me walking hand in hand,
In a wishful memory...
Oh, I guess it's all that it will ever be...

I wish I had a time machine, I could,
Make myself go back until the day I was born.
Then I would live my life again,
And rearrange it so that I'd be yours from now on.

Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.

Wrapped around each other
Trying so hard to stay warm
That first cold winter together
Lying in each others arms
Watching those old movies
Falling in love so desperately
Honey, I was your hero
And you were my leading lady

We had it all
Just like Bogie and Bacall
Starring in our old late, late show
Sailing away to Key Largo

I am waking up! Waking up from my dream that once drifted me away from all my piling up assignments.
Why why why.... Why can’t i kick away the habit of oversleeping and waking up late? I’ve missed 4 + 2 + 2 line of lessons. Aiyoyo, I hope daddy is not reading this. Bro, u better not tell daddy hor! :p Shucks :(

******
Dear father, please let me decide between the 2 wonderful things displaying in front of me now. No, the winner can’t take them all. The winner takes and appreciates and turns the best out of the good. With you deciding, I’m not going to regret. Oh lord, please take me away from the selfishness.